There has been a surge of drama in a friend circle, mostly about one person. I don't like drama, or negativity like that. It decays everyone and puts a sour note into everything. I stayed out of it for the most part, and what little I did have to say I like to think was objectionable and rational. Whenever drama arises I just sit on the sidelines and watch, occasionally stopping someone from doing something they might regret if it comes to that. But being involved in drama? It's not my thing. The last drama I was involved in almost lost me my closest friend.
It makes me think about how I am most of the time. Indecisive and indifferent to most things. I don't even like it when I express opinions, mostly negative ones. Lately I seem to be level-headed and more what I want: neutral.
It's how I feel most of the time, even with my gender identity. While I don't really identify as genderqueer I don't really see myself as totally female, but rather a combination of male and female to make some kind of "both and neither" person. Maybe that is genderqueer, but I prefer gender fluid personally. If there's even a difference.
I just want people to get along, or at least realise that people are just going to be different and there's nothing you can do to change that. I hate hostility within groups, and built-up bottled-up hostility. I guess people will just be determined to not get along in some capacity. I don't mind. Just don't drag me into fights expecting me to take a side. Because I won't. I'm on my side.
I think we're similar. I also, try to stay neutral when friend's are not getting along. And sometimes even play the mediator.
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