Hyena

The co-host of the radio show I'm on had a falling out with the host, so I said I could help out more, and she reacted pretty well to that idea.

This is the first time in a long time I've been excited about doing more, and taking on more responsibility. I guess it's mostly because of the eventual rewards of this. I really love movies and pop culture, so if I do more for the show I'll get exposed to more of it. I'm rather looking forward to the idea of making contacts and getting my name out there. It would be really cool to be some kind of journalist, and maybe eventually get into making movies in some aspect.

With all that said, I feel bad about the host and co-host breaking up like this. Part of me feels kinda guilty for all of that previous paragraph being the first thing to pop into my head when I heard the news. Almost like someone dying and wondering what your share of the inheritance will be.

Future

My first radio show went really well. I was so nervous, but when it came time to actually talk it was so easy. The co-host of the show is super cool as well, and told me I'd almost definitely love to do a media course, and that really resonated with me.

I'd never thought about it before. For a while now, I'd always wanted to go back to school to do something, but I could never figure out what. In the last 6 months I've been getting really heavily back into film, and now I have a gig on the radio to talk about horror and share a huge passion of mine. A friend of mine, who I haven't seen in years, messaged me out of the blue saying this radio thing is the most perfect thing in the universe I could do.

So it all kinda makes sense right now. It just seems like the next logical step. Last time I went down this road, I did it because I had no idea what I wanted to do, and I really wasn't in a headspace to decide, so I just went with what people told me. But now... Even though this is all happening by luck and external suggestions, no one is pushing me into anything. If I don't do this, I can still continue my existence how I see fit.

I quite like this idea.