The other day we got almost $200 worth of new kink gear. Turns out $200 doesn't go terribly far, but we got the vitals: 4 cuffs and LOTS of chain (and nipple clamps just to remove the human element). Unfortunately neither of us has been to the other's house since we got them, so they've been sitting in the corner for a few days.
Last night, out of the blue, Serina sent a long set of instructions on going to sleep. I was to cuff myself, restrain myself, and then tie my leash to the bed. I was excited, if a little nervous. I did have work the next day, and since it wipes me out I really needed a good sleep. But, I wanted to do it, and I could always take it off if it was a serious problem.
So, I got my bed ready for easy entry because I would not have much movement in the near future, turned the webcam on and followed her instructions. It was weird, but felt good. When I was finally ready to go to bed, and tied the leash on, I felt this amazing happiness wash over me. I was in my collar, in my cuffs, chained up, attached to the bed and about to go to sleep, being watched by Her.
I felt so safe, and secure, and happy, and comfortable. Sleep was not going to be a problem. It took a minute to get comfortable, and there were a few pinches of the cold chain, but they warmed up on my body quickly. Hugging my plush dead elephant Jane, I felt truly submissive. And almost like She was there holding onto me.
I don't know why. Just last night before I got ready, we were talking about her owning me, and we're both satisfied that being her slave would bring neither of us more happiness. But when this happens, I feel like I belong to her.
Every now and then when I'm sleeping with her, and she has her hand around my collar holding me in place, I snuggle into her harder and let out a hug sigh of contentment. That was the same feeling I had last night, just without Serina, and with a dead elephant.
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