Permission

There's a transgirl I know who is extremely determined to transition. She is full of self-loathing and insecurity.

The last few times I've talked to her she's mentioned her increasing health issues to do with her over-exerting herself on a constant basis. She barely eats, and exercises to the point of exhaustion every single day. Naturally, this made her unwell. She went to the doctor and became furious when he said to stop her routine.

She thinks that having any fat on her is muscle, and muscle is what men have, not women. She isn't listening to reason, and seems to want permission to keep doing what she's doing. I refuse to give in and take the apathetic attitude I normally have. I care about this girl, and I want her to succeed in a healthy way.

I've tried to talk her down so much, but I see that's pointless. If I push too hard she'll push me away, and just keep doing it. I regularly give her advice, whether she takes it is another matter.

She regularly says "When I transition". She sees it as a black and white thing. Something quick, and painless. If only it were. I've also tried to tell her she already is transitioning, but I got a confused reaction. I suppose the best thing I can do for her is to keep her near, and help pick up the pieces if she falls apart.