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:( Last one.
Song 30: Your favourite song this time last year.
Take a Picture, by Filter.
Easy song to pick, I was obsessed with this song for a long time. I started listening to it for mildly nostalgic reasons, this was "one of those songs you know but don't know the name of" to me, the riff and the singer's soft "I feel like a newborn" in the chorus was fairly popular in movies and TV when I was younger, at least it seemed to be. When I got over the nostalgia value, I noticed just how beautiful the song is. I've talked about perfect songs before, and to me, this is one of them.
It's rather bizarre that I love this song so much. I usually like music for it's lyrical content over the music, but the lyrics don't resonate with me much at all. It's about the lead singer getting drunk on a plane (awake on my airplane) and taking off all his clothes (my skin is bare) while people took photos (my skin is theirs / take a picture), and apparently his dad was disappointed (hey dad what do you think about your son now?). I find the way he sings it in combination with the accoustic guitar just amazing, it's so smooth and articulated and it just captures me.
Saturday, 9 April 2011
Friday, 8 April 2011
Song 29/30
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Song 29: A song from your childhood.
Here we go. Another easy one. I saw this one last week and have been looking forward to it for a long time. One of the few songs that reminds me of actual happy times from childhood, like playing with friends at school. In a way, this shaped my love of music, because this is by my first favourite band and a band I still take quite a lot of inspiration from. I still don't know what fly means, but whatever, Pretty Fly For a White Guy, by The Offspring, remains one of my favourite songs and always reminds me of my childhood.
One song left...
Song 29: A song from your childhood.
Here we go. Another easy one. I saw this one last week and have been looking forward to it for a long time. One of the few songs that reminds me of actual happy times from childhood, like playing with friends at school. In a way, this shaped my love of music, because this is by my first favourite band and a band I still take quite a lot of inspiration from. I still don't know what fly means, but whatever, Pretty Fly For a White Guy, by The Offspring, remains one of my favourite songs and always reminds me of my childhood.
One song left...
Thursday, 7 April 2011
Song 28/30
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Song 28: A song that makes you feel guilty.
It never gets old, huh?
Harking back to my least favourite song, this song makes me feel guilty because I feel like I'm not living life to its fullest. There is so much to experience, so much to learn, to see, to feel, and I'm not doing it, nor am I making progress towards doing it. While this song is amazing and inspirational, it also shows me how much wasted potential I have, and indeed what most people have. I look at my family and I think is this it? Is this all they want? A normal relationship, kids, a home? There's no excitement there, not for me anyway. I want to explore the world, myself, other people, expand my mind in every possible way and maybe some impossible ways too.
The world is just awesome. It's a huge, inspirational, random, fascinating, unbelievable, mysterious, growing, scary, intimidating, amazing, beautiful world out there and I want to experience it for myself.
Song 28: A song that makes you feel guilty.
It never gets old, huh?
Harking back to my least favourite song, this song makes me feel guilty because I feel like I'm not living life to its fullest. There is so much to experience, so much to learn, to see, to feel, and I'm not doing it, nor am I making progress towards doing it. While this song is amazing and inspirational, it also shows me how much wasted potential I have, and indeed what most people have. I look at my family and I think is this it? Is this all they want? A normal relationship, kids, a home? There's no excitement there, not for me anyway. I want to explore the world, myself, other people, expand my mind in every possible way and maybe some impossible ways too.
The world is just awesome. It's a huge, inspirational, random, fascinating, unbelievable, mysterious, growing, scary, intimidating, amazing, beautiful world out there and I want to experience it for myself.
Song 27/30
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Song 27: A song you wish you could play.
I just want to learn how to play lots of music, various styles and skill levels. There is no one absolute song. However, to get completely ahead of myself and into a realm I can only imagine, I would love to be able to play The Dance of Eternity, by Dream Theater, on bass.
Man, only 3 left...
Song 27: A song you wish you could play.
I just want to learn how to play lots of music, various styles and skill levels. There is no one absolute song. However, to get completely ahead of myself and into a realm I can only imagine, I would love to be able to play The Dance of Eternity, by Dream Theater, on bass.
Man, only 3 left...
Wednesday, 6 April 2011
Mass Effect log
I've finally got into Mass Effect. There was a lot of issues with my computer overheating while playing it, various blue screens and just straight up confusion on what exactly was going on, but it's all fixed by moving the computer to where it can breathe, changing some settings and paying a lot more attention, respectively.
I'm going the Paragon route, I made a female character and called her Ylatch. Currently on lvl27 I think and I'm a Soldier, my main party members are Garrus and Liara, Liara also being my main love interest. Mono-gendered blue alien with tentacle hair? How could I possibly resist?
I just had Wrex killed :( I'm actually really sad about that too, but I mustn't have high enough exp in one area cos I couldn't work through it with him, and he was about to kill me. I have also sent Kaidan to his death on the same planet, he was my love interest until I found Liara. I sent him away to prove my undying love for Liara :)
I am wondering if I'll get a new krogan, because well... there's a big black field on my party screen now.
RIP Wrex
I'm going the Paragon route, I made a female character and called her Ylatch. Currently on lvl27 I think and I'm a Soldier, my main party members are Garrus and Liara, Liara also being my main love interest. Mono-gendered blue alien with tentacle hair? How could I possibly resist?
I just had Wrex killed :( I'm actually really sad about that too, but I mustn't have high enough exp in one area cos I couldn't work through it with him, and he was about to kill me. I have also sent Kaidan to his death on the same planet, he was my love interest until I found Liara. I sent him away to prove my undying love for Liara :)
I am wondering if I'll get a new krogan, because well... there's a big black field on my party screen now.
RIP Wrex
Tuesday, 5 April 2011
Songs 25 + 26/30
I didn't do yesterday's song, I was distracted by things...
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Song 25: A song that makes you laugh.
Man, my friend put me onto Tim Minchin. I knew about him already, but I never bothered to look him up more. He showed me Storm, which is very clever and has amazing delivery. Well, it's actually a beat poem but whatever, it's close enough to a song to be called a song.
Song 26: A song you can play on an instrument.
Well well well... I used to play the violin, then when I went to high school I learned the tenor saxophone. At the time, I was obsessed with the muppets and I saw the older school band perform The Muppet Show theme song and asked for the sheet music so I could play it. I didn't practice much but I was still pretty ok at the sax. The sax teacher didn't give me the music because I didn't practice much, so I struck a deal. I'd practice more, and if I showed noticable improvement he'd give me the sheet music for The Muppet Show. I practiced my ass off for 3 weeks, 2 to 5 hours a night except weekends, and proved it by showing a big improvement. He kept his end of the deal and gave me the sheet music. It was fucking awesome, since I already knew the tune I picked it up and could play half of it flawlessly in half an hours' practice.
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Song 25: A song that makes you laugh.
Man, my friend put me onto Tim Minchin. I knew about him already, but I never bothered to look him up more. He showed me Storm, which is very clever and has amazing delivery. Well, it's actually a beat poem but whatever, it's close enough to a song to be called a song.
Song 26: A song you can play on an instrument.
Well well well... I used to play the violin, then when I went to high school I learned the tenor saxophone. At the time, I was obsessed with the muppets and I saw the older school band perform The Muppet Show theme song and asked for the sheet music so I could play it. I didn't practice much but I was still pretty ok at the sax. The sax teacher didn't give me the music because I didn't practice much, so I struck a deal. I'd practice more, and if I showed noticable improvement he'd give me the sheet music for The Muppet Show. I practiced my ass off for 3 weeks, 2 to 5 hours a night except weekends, and proved it by showing a big improvement. He kept his end of the deal and gave me the sheet music. It was fucking awesome, since I already knew the tune I picked it up and could play half of it flawlessly in half an hours' practice.
Monday, 4 April 2011
Caring vs not caring
I had this thought while waking up.
People who dress differently apparently don't care what others think of them. I've slowly becoming more feminine in my male appearance, so I guess that means I don't care what others think, right? Fuck the establishment and all that.
Well, maybe not. I love being "mistaken" for female when in boy mode, so I take every opportunity I can to make sure that mistake happens, sans wearing a skirt. If I didn't care what people thought I would just dress like a normal masculine guy while in boy mode. Yet I dress fem. I say I don't care what others think, but I guess that's not true, I want to be seen as female, as who I am.
I care what people think. I want them to think female when they see me.
I guess this also means that I care about myself a bit more to actually dress so fem in boy mode. Or maybe I'm just brave enough now. Fem guys tend to stand out a bit, so obviously I draw some attention by having hair half way down my back, blue nails, girls hoodie and girls jeans. Writing that out just made me realise how fucking little there is between girl/boy for me lately.
I suppose it comes down to what kind of attention, because there is more than just gender-stereotyping attention people get. Granted, there's a whole mental checklist people go through when they see someone new, with what gender is that person pretty much at the top, but then once that's over there's a whole list of stuff to follow: What race are they? Are they attractive? Do they look like a nice person? Should I carry a knife from now on?
I dunno, I do care what people think, otherwise I wouldn't look this way when in boy mode. I guess it's just a positive way to care, and it's not like others dictate my dress sense... even though they do because feminine is a hypothetical construct made by people and to be seen as "different" you have to have something to be different from, and usually that thing is established by others...
Did I mention I had this thought while waking up?
People who dress differently apparently don't care what others think of them. I've slowly becoming more feminine in my male appearance, so I guess that means I don't care what others think, right? Fuck the establishment and all that.
Well, maybe not. I love being "mistaken" for female when in boy mode, so I take every opportunity I can to make sure that mistake happens, sans wearing a skirt. If I didn't care what people thought I would just dress like a normal masculine guy while in boy mode. Yet I dress fem. I say I don't care what others think, but I guess that's not true, I want to be seen as female, as who I am.
I care what people think. I want them to think female when they see me.
I guess this also means that I care about myself a bit more to actually dress so fem in boy mode. Or maybe I'm just brave enough now. Fem guys tend to stand out a bit, so obviously I draw some attention by having hair half way down my back, blue nails, girls hoodie and girls jeans. Writing that out just made me realise how fucking little there is between girl/boy for me lately.
I suppose it comes down to what kind of attention, because there is more than just gender-stereotyping attention people get. Granted, there's a whole mental checklist people go through when they see someone new, with what gender is that person pretty much at the top, but then once that's over there's a whole list of stuff to follow: What race are they? Are they attractive? Do they look like a nice person? Should I carry a knife from now on?
I dunno, I do care what people think, otherwise I wouldn't look this way when in boy mode. I guess it's just a positive way to care, and it's not like others dictate my dress sense... even though they do because feminine is a hypothetical construct made by people and to be seen as "different" you have to have something to be different from, and usually that thing is established by others...
Did I mention I had this thought while waking up?
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