The Log, and other things

The Pills are making me sleep way more than I used to. They don't make me tired, but when I'm asleep I'm down for a long time. Every night for the last 3 weeks I've been asleep between 10 - 14 hours. Today, I slept in through 3 separate alarms that were set to make sure I'd be awake early enough to go to my friends place to watch movies before we had to go to our transgroup meeting.

Well, obviously it didn't work, which is disappointing because my computer has died again, and she knows it's making me miserable, and invited me over to get me out of the house and get my mind off it. It's really sweet, and I'm frustrated I slept through spending more time with her. I sleep through a lot of things lately.

It's kind of nice, in a way. I know that when I go to sleep, I can stay there for half a day. I've been having a lot of different dreams, too.

Another thing The Pills are effecting is... not really my memory, but more my perception of time. I saw my friends earlier today, I know that for a fact, but it feels like it was a few days ago, or even last week. Yesterday feels like a week ago, and the day before feels so distant I barely remember it.

It makes my life right now very surreal. I feel like I've been writing this post for hours, but I know it's only been 10 minutes at most. In a way, it makes big events stand out more than usual, because I can still remember them really well, just not the surrounding stuff as much. It's actually made my mind a lot less cluttered, which is always a good thing.

And finally, I mentioned my computer being broken. It's making me pretty sad, partly because I may lose almost a decades worth of chat logs and irreplaceable pictures, but also because that computer is where I let off my steam. It has my video games on it, where I can finally let loose my aggression and anger, or just fade away and get lost in a world that isn't this one. Sure, I can just reinstall them, but they're all attached to Steam, so it will take a long long time until I'm back up and running if I have to start over.

The pictures and chat logs, however... those will be gone for good. I really don't want that to happen.