Dress ups

Over the last few months, I've been connecting with others a bit more. It's been extremely rewarding.

For the first time in over a year, I had someone who wasn't my ex at my house. I had an actual friend hang out here. Not that no one else has been here, but this is the first person to be here just for the sake of being here. Not to pick me up to go somewhere, not to borrow something. Just to be here.

It was so strange. I kept getting paranoid they'd find something disgusting about my environment. That my mother would harass them. That she'd never want to stay my friend.

As my usual route, I won't name the person, but I shall call them C. C came into my room to show her my Lego collection, and she was impressed, and nostalgic, which then spread to me when I realised just how much Lego I have. Then she spied my clothes rack. I don't have a wardrobe, or closet or anything, just a rack that has clothes hanging off it.

She loved all my goth stuff, so I asked if she wanted to try on my corset. She tried to hide her excitement at this suggestion (meanwhile I was visibly ecstatic I could lace someone up for the first time). So off came some of her layers.

I was somewhat amazed at her body. She is trans, male to female, but always looked and dressed so masculine. She absolutely definitely passes as female, and I can understand not wanting to flaunt femininity, but it seemed a shame, because she has a lot going for her, physically.

Anyway, I cleared a space in front of my massive mirror that my Big Sister gave me, and wrapped it around her. I pulled it in a bit to get in the slack, adjusted the position more, and asked "ready?" and she nodded. I pulled it, and she let out a gasp, and just as I was fixing the X's she said that was tight enough. So I tied it off, and stepped back.

I had forgotten how much fun this was. It's been forever since I've done this with someone. I've documented many times how I like helping out new transgirls, but these kinds of times I get a real thrill. Corsets are sexy, anyone who says otherwise is provably wrong. It suited her quite a bit.

After 5 minutes she had enough of it, so I undid her and she eyed another piece of mine. I left the room and she tried on this dress I have that's just barely too small for me (I bought it as incentive to lose weight) and again, she looked amazing. She is not the kind of person I'm attracted to, but she looked really hot.

She was super shy and awkward. It showed off a lot more skin than I think she was comfortable with, right now. But I think I've created a monster, I've given her a taste for blood. I really hope this was the push she wanted/needed to start dressing how she wants, cos she can definitely pull it off.

God damn. Dress ups are so much fun.