Saturday, 7 April 2012

The revelation

Everything I've heard about being a slave means that you're your owners property, and that you can't even breathe without them saying so. You have to be near them at all times, and do everything they say all the time.

This sounds fine on paper. But day to day? Hardly practical.

I've been freaking out about Serina and E persuing this slavery thing, because I felt like there would be no room in her life for me anymore. This is just not true.

I always figured she would have little to no downtime, and wouldn't be online anymore, wouldn't see me much anymore... wrong. She wants E to be her support, her guide, her push, her drive, her strive to be a better person.

There will be room in her life for me, and not just because E says "go play with that girl you used to hang out with", but because there's actual room here for me.

After I hit this little revelation, I felt my mind go FWOOOOSH, and I was floating. It was like every planet had lined up, like some hardcore drug had just kicked in, like something had flicked on in my head and was somehow that goddamn fucking thing I've been waiting to trigger to make me see some way through this whole thing.

And now I get it.

1 comment:

  1. I'm really glad you've reached this point :) I have no desire to take her away from you. And if I did? We wouldn't be here, because she has no desire to leave you. :)

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