The F word

Serina has been throwing around the word "family" when referring to E and L, and said that she feels like a part of it. She has also alluded to the fact that I'm involved as well, which I didn't feel for obvious reasons.

But after being in their house for so long yesterday and today, and seeing how everyone interacts, and how they interact with me... I think I get it.

I feel so naturally like a little kid there. There's my mummy, her potential owner E, and E's boy, L. E gives of a very big daddy vibe to everyone around him, which Serina adores. So it seems like E is half-daddy to her. Which would, naturally, make E my grandpa.

So, after the event, we were calming down at Grandpa E's house, and since I was half-exhausted half-traumatised I was phasing in and out of the conversation Serina and E were having. Serina asked me if I was doing ok, cos I was really quiet, and I said I wanted candy, not expecting to get any at all. Then E stood up and said "I think I have some lolipops around here" and found some. Oh god, I was so excited.

At some point, someone mentioned the word possum. I love playing with possums, so I started talking about these times I got bitten by some at a park, and E mentioned there's a pretty cool park nearby. I got really excited and asked where it was. He said it wasn't far, so I excitedly asked what the time was, cos I really wanted to go, even though I wasn't expecting to (it was 1.30am, Serina and E looked pretty tired and I'd had a big night), and to my surprise E got up and said "let's go".

Oh my god I got dressed so fast and ran to the car. It was a short drive too, which was good cos I was bouncing off the walls. I jumped out of the car as we arrived to the park and went mental on all the equipment while mummy and Grandpa E watched. Eventaully I wore myself out, and flopped into the giant swing again while they sat on the bench, talking. After a while I looked over at them, and felt a microscoping pang of jealousy, which quickly went away when I saw how comfortable they were together, and how included I feel. So I just watched them for a minute, and it was really nice. So I went to go sit with them, me leaning on my mummy, and her leaning on Grandpa E. I think this was the first time I called him Grandpa E, and he squirmed a lot. Serina and I giggled.

It's way way way early days, and I didn't really know what to think about mummy's feelings towards it all at first, it seemed to happen so fast. But that's just the kind of people E and L are: warm, open and incredibly caring and accepting. And I feel quite special just to know these people, let alone be involved in any of their lives. Mummy, especially.