The Monsters are creeping in again. Lately, my mind has been full of negativity aimed towards myself. Physically, emotioanally. Body image, wondering if I'm doing the right thing, wondering if maybe some of the people who look up to me should stop.
There is no one thing that's caused this. I've been teetering on the edge for a while, but never tipped, until today. Body issues, self confidence, gender presentation, fear of not fitting in, fear of falling out of the way...
I made a conscious choice to let them in. To let them win. To stop trying. To give in to self-loathing, when I really shouldn't.
Something needs to change.
It must be the week for it
ReplyDeleteAll the feelings and fears load up till you can do nothing but scream!!!!
I hate it too, and sometimes feel so lost,alone and scared.
Keep battling your fears gorgeous
we all love you