Tuesday, 22 May 2012

The alone-time itch

I'm frustrated. Mummy is over tonight, but for some reason I just want more alone time. She's in my room right now, watching TV while I play games on the computer in the other room.

She's been at E's for a while, and I've missed her a lot, and yet we're not even in the same room right now.

What's with this? Whenever we're away from each other for a few days we usually spend at least the first few hours attached at the hip. But not this time.

I guess I'm feeling extremely introverted at the moment. And everything seems to be moving really fast, even though I couldn't tell you anything that's happening. Maybe I'm coming down off the high from hearing about the gift I received?

I just feel so... restless. The fact that mummy is super tired makes things harder as well. She just wants to relax and watch a movie, and I want something more active. I feel bad if I drag her away from what she's doing, but I also feel bad being separate like this. I'm also in a mindframe where I get really frustrated at everything easily, which is not a good place to be with our dynamic. We were watching a movie before, and she kept playing with my hair, and I wanted her to stop and I was getting more and more frustrated at her for not stopping.

Maybe a part of it is that my social life has taken a plummet recently. I haven't been out to see friends in well over a week. Maybe I'm getting stuck in a rut?

I don't know. I just want it to be over.

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