Friday, 23 March 2012

Square one. Or maybe zero

I haven't been updating this place mostly because the only updates in my life consist of becoming a rather acomplished warlock in World of Warcraft and nothing else. It's not that WoW has sucked my life away, I've just found something to do in the large amounts of down-time I have.

Anyway, yesterday Serina dragged me to Centrelink so we could start the process again, and so I could get some money again. Apparently it went well, but I see "we can't do anything" as a negative thing. Serina later said that her sights had been set a bit lower than mine and so to her it was a victory, because after they said they can't do anything they said that I can do a lot of things to fix this, all of which trigger my anxiety. I'm tempted to pretend we didn't go, and just keep cruising along until I get desperate.

We both hate Centrelink. I've only been in twice by myself, and it was a terrifying experience. Going back today reminded me why I really admire Serina: she can push through her fear. She would probably say that I do as well, but I just tag along for the ride most of the time. She's getting big parts of her life sorted out, and getting better, and I'm just watching.

I'll finish on something positive to prove my life isn't a total mess: I'm co-running my transgroups intro night, for new people. It's really nice, makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. I'm doing it because our group can be a little hectic sometimes, and I've had experience being the new person, knowing no one, and being ignored. It sucks, and is counter-productive.

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